"And now my fur has turned to skin
And I've been quickly ushered in
To a world that I confess I do not know"Five years ago, exactly, I listened to Blitzen Trapper's Furr on one of several drives back and forth from the hospital where my wife had brought our first born into the world and it made all the sense in the world that my life had gone through the stages it had to prepare me for a moment that I was not prepared for and had no idea how to deal with. Those doubts, those exciting doubts, they were the result of not really understanding. Not getting it because it couldn't be explained. But it was a sign of readiness. Understanding, if it ever comes, comes later. It comes when you do what the next song is about. It comes when you do what I've done and continue to do.
Lenny Kravitz's Little Girl's Eyes (coincidentally on his album, 5) is a song I always thought was kinda cheesy. And really, it is. But the thing is, at one point, after looking at Shayera's eyes a few times, I heard the song again after years, and it just killed me. There's a moment that can happen and I'm sure I've written about it somewhere before, where you look into your child's eyes and it connects you to the way you looked at your parents and the way they looked at you and back through the generations and forward in time, where you finally understand. I had that moment once with her. It changed me and I'm reminded of it every time I look at her now.
|This isn't that moment.|